The End of Emptiness
Have you ever believed in something so bad that you have
sleepless nights because of it? Your mind is constantly in overdrive, conjuring
up ways in which it can attain it because it fully knows that that will be the only
way to achieve inner peace. Yet, despite all efforts on your part to get to
where you want to be, it remains but a star in the distance; visible to the
eye, but so difficult to reach.
Have you ever had that feeling?
I’ve been feeling like that lately. I feel like there’s a
void in me. Everyday seems to be the same routine: wake up, get ready for
college, go to college, come back from college, do college work, eat, sleep,
repeat. Call it a nerd girl problem, but I’m constantly bombarded by a million ideas
by the day and I never really have time to attend to them all because of this
monotonous life schedule I have to follow, and it leaves a void in me. Because
of that, I feel I’m not living up to my full potential. What’s the point in
having an intelligent and creative mind if I’m not going to use it for the
greater good? What’s the point in living in this ever-changing world if I’m not
going to try and use my abilities to also make a positive adjustment in it?
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to make myself into some
superhuman-revolutionist-activist but I am a thinker, and therefore I expect
myself to be a doer as well. I want my acts to change the world. I expect my
acts to leave a legacy. But it’s not happening…
It takes a lot of a self-acceptance to realize that one
doesn’t need to be moving mountains in order to make a difference. That’s
something that I have slowly been learning. Just because I can’t do great
things, doesn’t mean I can’t do small things in a great way, that’s what it is.
It’s because of that very notion that I give every project that I get involved
in a 110%!
That being said, this brings me to the actual reason for this post, the new journey I have embarked on: The Mashumi Art Projects. It has captured my heart; hook, line and sinker. And I can't wait to share my experience of it with all of you.
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